Okay, you know about PMS (Premenstrual Syndrome) that women deal with? Well damn it, I'm dealing with something that I would like to call POMS:Pissed-Off Male Syndrome (or symptoms b/c sometimes there may be more than one sign). Basically, it's those moments when you don't want to talk to anyone, you snap at any given moment, even at your loved ones and you don't give a shit who is offended. You just mad as hell. That's it in a nutshell. Right now It's the job hunt. I feel like It's three years down the road and I'm doing the same shit that I was doing then. I feel like I'm working a full time job w/ no pay. Professional Job hunting sucks, there is no pay, no rewards, just tiresome bullshit and frustrations when no one responds or when your application is rejected. It's like everyone in my circle is passing me up but I'm expected to cover up my resentment for the sake of being humble. It's not that I don't want anyone to be happy, but fuck man! What about me? It feels like I've busted my ass for seven years (undergrad and grad school) and all I have to show for it is some student loans and credit debt. It's like my younger brother, cousins, and everyone else (it seems) have passed me up and they are working full time, and yet I cannot pay someone to hire me. Through all of this, would you believe that people still have the audacity to ask me if I want to get my doctorate or go back to school??? Oh also I'm dealing w/ anxiety attacks and intrusive thoughts. I feel like God has abandoned me in many moments and it's to the point that I'm contemplating a spiritual hiatus. Fellas, are you dealing with POMS? Alternative name, POMGD (Pissed-Off Male Gender Disorder).
POMS symptoms include but are not limited to:
1. Constant anger, regardless of the situation
2. Upset about 80%-95% of the time, and it seems that not even doing the things that you love can make you happy or bring you joy
3. You find yourself happier when you are thinking dark thoughts than you do thinking positively.
4. Nobody, not even your best friend can cheer you up.
5. You've reached a point that even prayer does not mean anything to you, in fact just the thought of it makes you want to throw up!
6. When you snap at others and you don't care if they are hurt (for the moment), though you might regret it later
7. You've relied on ranting on Facebook and twitter about the situation
8. You use sites such as Justrage.com to vent and say the shit that you cannot say on general social media networks.
9.You get the thought to throw things across the room regardless of who or what is in the way, even glass!
10.Nothing inspirational helps you, it just makes you angrier and more enraged!
11. You just want to be left alone.
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